Tuesday, June 24, 2014

This kind of "late" is worse than a late period.

So we are now looking at 40 weeks and 5 days of pregnancy. I actually googled "longest" pregnancy yesterday and one woman was pregnant for 375 days. I'm only at 285 days. My pregnancy apps have officially stopped notifying me about things that are going on in my womb and what to expect. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my Doctor to talk about induction. I'm not even sure how I feel about this.

I have officially been asked nicely not to return to work or I would have been working today. But between trying to figure out if my husband should drive me in so that I could take an ambulance home if need be, just didn't seem okay with my boss or my husband. Needless to say that I'm not overjoyed about taking unpaid time off with out a damn baby here! But......I do see their points.

Sunday I had to go to the hospital for a non-stress test. They check the baby's heart rate and my uterus to see if I am having any contractions. When you've never had a baby before and they consistently ask you "Are you having any contractions?" you answer truthfully...."I think it's just gas". I honestly have no idea.

My mother texted me yesterday morning to let me know that she was going to go buy hair dye to look good for "what's her face". We haven't decided 100% on a baby name yet. It really all comes down to if she is born a ginger or not. Also, I told my mom that she may have roots by the time she decides to make her appearance. She asked if that was a joke, I told her I wasn't sure.

In lieu of some voodoo karma vibe shit, I told my sister that the baby hasn't come yet because she hasn't put together the pig rocker and delivered it. She dropped it off on Sunday all put together and ........... that didn't make her come either.
Cutest thing Ever!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pig Rocker
We received some of the best news yesterday. If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that my husband has been out of work for almost 2 years with a back injury. After 22 months of jumping through all of the workmans compensation hoops, he has finally been approved for back surgery. Naturally, this is the worst timing ever, but I am completely ok with it. This man hasn't slept longer than 3 hours at time in forever! We can't even go out to eat for longer than an hour because his back kills him from sitting. Especially now with the little one on her way, he will hopefully be able to do everything with her!

I made a decision to give our labor and delivery nurses and doctors cupcakes after we have Baby Casey. We have this really great place near us that makes the yummiest cupcakes. Flavors like cookie dough, reese's peanut butter cup, buffalo chicken (this one has a chicken wing on top of the blue cheese frosting) and boston cream, how could I say no? We had these for my baby shower and my mom had some left over cupcake boxes so I used those and decided to personalize them with stamps and pink bakers twine.

Enjoy your Tuesday, I'm off to go and bounce on a birthing ball, have good sex, take long walks and eat pineapple. And all of those activities are code words for "sit on hammock".

Friday, June 20, 2014

Moms are batshit crazy and soon I will be learning why.

I figured since my pregnancy is almost over, I should write a summary post before I have a baby and get all biased. First of all, my pregnancy was great up until the last 4 weeks. Then all kinds of funky and painful things started happening to my body. Back pain, tingly fingers, bathroom problems, and a sciatic nerve issue making it impossible for me to walk comfortably...just to name a few. As I'm writing this post, Baby C is moving all around. I have yet to get a maternal attachment to her while she has been in there, and while asking other new moms about this, many of them have experienced the same thing. All of that changes when you seen your baby, I'm told. I know that I will miss her wiggles. As much as I'm ready for "ejection" there is a part of me that is warm and fuzzy and will miss knowing that I provided a safe and healthy place for her to grow for 10 months.

I do have some goals as a parent, a spouse and my own individual ones that I want to achieve even though I will be a new parent. It was recommended to me to write these things down. That way, when I'm feeling all over the place and lost, I can read these and see what was important to me and made me happy before, should still be important to me and make me happy now (post baby).

As a parent, I will constantly be educating myself on what is "better" and a more natural way to raise our baby. I have always been a little earthy crunchy at heart but hide it well with hair spray, lip gloss and laser peels. Knowing that I can provide the best nurturing for our little one by educating myself more will be a big goal of mine. It all starts with what we put into our bodies. I feel our entire family will benefit from this.
I also want our daughter to be able to play and explore with out feeling like she's in a bubble. Josh and I both grew up playing outside. No cell phones, video games, i-devices etc. Both country kids. We want to spend as much time as we can technology free, enjoying what's on this earth! Four wheeling, swimming, camping, making snowmen, apple picking etc. I feel once you disconnect from social media, tv and the internet, time slows down. You can be more present.

As a wife, my goal is not let my husband feel neglected. Two deployments and ten years later, we haven't put all this effort into making each other happy, just to throw it out the window. Our communication skills have improved immensely over the last 4 years and I will continue to keep these lines open even when I am overwhelmed. Even if I feel like a failure as a mom some days, I will talk about this with my husband. We have been through enough to be able to have no shame with one another or judgement in regards to each others feelings. We WILL have date nights, and not just talk about doing them. We will still have our adult relationships with our friends and spend time with them. We will still have our "us" time, our laughs and the jokes that only we understand.
I find so many people make excuses, once they have a family, in regards to maintaining a balance between everything. I'm not saying that it's going to be easy, but I know what I want and I think that's the first step. After all, in 20 years when your kids move out,  and all you have is your spouse, you better hope that you can still stand each other.

As an individual. I will set the bar the highest here. I have learned in the last ten years that only I am responsible for my own happiness. I am responsible for my reactions to others actions. This has taken a lot of practice and I still work on it everyday. This is one of my biggest accomplishments in life and one of my proudest. Being able to control your reactions to assholes, drama and negativity is life changing. This is an ongoing goal.

I will not neglect my home. My husband has put far too much work into it. I know that this will be another tough task, but I'm sure my OCD will help with this.
There will be no yelling over spilled milk. Life is too short. Are there going to be days when I want to pull my hair out and feel like I'm going bat shit crazy? I'm sure, but that is what wine and friends are for. I'm far from a super hero and I'm well aware that what I want my life to be like after the baby will take a lot of work, patience, practice and of course tears. But I'm ok with all of that.

A good piece of  advice came from my obgyn. He said, "Other moms are going to give you their opinion about everything, even if you don't ask. They all think that they are pros. Don't listen and make your own assumptions and decisions."

A lot of comments that I've heard from other moms have been disturbing. I'm not sure if women say things to make being a mother seem like an extremely difficult job or if they are saying it to discourage you from having children. Or if after you have kids, it's some kind of mom code, to complain about being a mother. (I'm not saying that it's easy, so cool your jets) But when a woman says to you "Enjoy your quiet time now, because you won't have any later, but it's all worth it", she sounds effing crazy. Or the lady at Target, who had two kids running around like animals and looked at me when I was 7 months pregnant and said "Keep that baby in there as long as you can!" Like I had a choice! I mean, being married is a lot of work and I don't go around telling people that, and then following it up with a "but he's worth it".

Hopefully this is my last post pre-parent and maybe my last sane post as well. I hear sleep deprivation is a bitch. I also hear that cough syrup works wonders on infants.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

40 Week Bumpdate, Spicy food, Sex and Pedicures

How far along: 40 weeks aka full term aka incubation time is over aka "get out of my belly"
Gender: Girl
Weight gain: 18lbs
Maternity clothes: I'm ready to burn these clothes, it's been real!
Stretch marks: No
Belly button in or out: Out
Sleep: Sleep is pretty decent. Either that or I've just gotten used to being up quite often. Getting out of bed is a whole other story........
Best moment this week: I actually cut down a day at work this week. I took off Wednesday and went and got my hair done and a pedicure. I also crossed spicy food (spicy crabmeat salad) and sex off of my "Makes You Go Into Labor" list. Needless to say, none of those worked. Oh and neither did the full moon that we had last Friday.
Worse moment this week: On Tuesday I baked cupcakes for the girls at work. They have been super helpful these last couple months, especially my manager. I made 12 cupcakes and used the rest of the cake mix to make a mini cake (8x8). I finished baking around 9 and thought that it would be a good idea for me to eat some cake and cookie dough ice cream. WORST. IDEA. EVER. I had indigestion until 2:30 am and had to sit up in bed til then, to keep myself from barfing!
Miss anything: Vacuuming. I know, sounds weird but I love a clean house and with this sciatic nerve issue going on,  it's totally put a cramp in my cleaning routine.
Movement: There is no more room in there, between feet in my ribs and elbows down low, I keep thinking she must be ready to move out!
Cravings: Finally my first craving at 40 weeks, gummy worms! But only the red/clear ones. The rest of the bag hits the trash!
Looking forward to:  My water breaking. At this point, I don't give a shit if it happens in the middle of Target and someone has to call for a clean up in aisle 3!

In other news the baby pool is up to $155 bucks! Even one of my maternity nurses has put in her bid. I'm not quite sure how comfortable I am with her gambling on my delivery though, I can just picture her saying "Don't push yet, in 2 hours it will be my date!" lol. There are also people that I don't even know that have bid on my delivery. People have wagered from June 10th all the way until the end of June with weights ranging from 6lbs to 8lbs 1oz.

Josh finished another small project in the nursery, the growth chart. Even though we won't be using this for about a year, it's something that was really important to him...and as usual, it came out amazeballs. Because our home is post and beam, most rooms have a beam in them and we fully took advantage of this one!
DIY Growth Ruler

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Summer Bucket List

Compiling a summer bucket list seems like a practical thing to do when your 9 months pregnant right? Considering I have no idea how to balance a baby that's not here yet, life, work and my marriage? 

I would have added miniature golfing but Josh HATES it. We have never been together and I have a secret suspicion that he may stink :) 
AND in lieu of mini golfing I wouldn't mind seeing Florida Georgia Line and Nelly. 

I'm feeling pretty confident that we can most likely accomplish half of this list! 
and obviously "Have this damn baby" is the unspoken to-do!

What's on your bucket list? 

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Come out Come Out Wherever You Are!!!! 39 Week Bumpdate!

How far along: 39 weeks
Gender: Girl

Weight gain: 18 lbs.

Maternity clothes: I'm totally over maternity clothes at this point! I resorted back to leggings and some cute baggy t-shirts (if there is such a thing). With only 1 week left I refuse to buy any clothes for myself, at this point anyway.

Stretch marks: No and I seriously have no idea how I dodged this ball. I have super temper mental and sensitive skin! I did get some pregnancy melasma on my face, which looks like small freckled patches but I've had that in the past due to birth control so it's no biggie. Plus after this baby comes out I intend to get it "fried" off with a laser peel :)

Belly button in or out: Out most of the time.

Sleep: Back to sleeping pretty good. I wake up 3 times a night to pee and that's about it.

Best moment this week: Knowing that withing 7-10 days we will meet our little girl!!! Yes, I'm scared as hell for labor, considering my pregnancy app let me know that the baby is the size of a "mini" watermelon this morning. 

Miss anything: Walking. I know this sounds nuts, but as of Monday the baby has moved in on my sciatic nerve. So as we speak I have a shooting electrical shock going down through my butt cheek to my foot and it's giving me dead leg. I've been shuffling around like a 80 year old man. I swear every week, pregnancy brings something new.

Movement: Still a ton of movement. Knees, heels, hands etc. And it's all visible!

Cravings: Nothing, not even a margarita! 

Queasy or sick: Still hanging on to the acid reflux.
Looking forward to: My plan was to cut back on work this week but I. Just. Can't. Especially when I see that it's going to be a busy and productive day! I blame this on my unpaid leave. So I'm looking forward to next week, when no matter what I'm cutting back!!!! And of course the arrival of little Casey.

I'm currently obsessed with Old Navy's Black and White baby stuff right now!!! I'm loving this outfit for summer!!!!!
 mocs-Freshly picked headbands-House Of Mia Onesie and Pants-Old Navy

Monday, June 9, 2014

Nursery Reveal Photo Dump

I am well aware that this has taken me forever and a day to put together. My excuses are as follows:

 1) The natural lighting that is good for photos in the nursery is limited to early hours of the morning.
2) Lazy.

 Simple Modern Baby Heart Mobile- Etsy Bluewithoutyoukids 
Crib and Nursery Furniture- Million Dollar Baby 
Coral Curtains- JC Penny 
  Wicker basket- Target
Bekvam Spice Racks as bookshelves- Ikea 
Madison Glider in Oxford- Babies R us
Star Blanket- Zulily
timi and leslie Charlie diaper bag in light brown- Amazon

The beam on the wall in this picture is currently being made into a growth chart ruler!

Alphabet Printable- Etsy ColourMoon
Popsicle Printable- Design Love Fest Blog 
 Frames- Michaels

  Sliding Barn door- My amazing husband

Fisherman Table Lamp- Pottery Barn
Wicker Containers- ikea
Umbra Casa tissue box- Amazon 
Custom Sherbert and Ash Nursery set- Etsy CarolynNealenCloth 
*this shop owner is great to work with!!!!

 Sherbert and Ash Nursery Set- Etsy CarolynNealenCloth

 Storage Boxes- Ikea
Mini Wagon- The Paper Store
Rug- Target

Spring Lamb- Etsy HeyJudeSewing Shop

This week I am cutting my work schedule back. Baby Casey should be here any day and my work days are making me exhausted! 

Happy Monday!!!  


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